I have been looking for my calling. My individual purpose that I follow to define myself as an individual and make my impact, whether it be on the world or just an impact on my world, my family, my friends, my reality. I think I am starting to see that my personal, individual calling right now is to focus on myself, my needs, my growth. Actually giving myself the attention I so desperately need. I can't give my family my love, my grace and my care if I haven't found it inside of myself, for myself. I am putting myself into rehab. A personal rehab thats in the midst of my daily life. At the beginning of this transformation journey, I wiped out all thoughts and feelings and started over. At that point, that was healthy and what I had to do. And for awhile I was at peace for the first time in all of my life. But then I got to a point in that process where I needed to start construction on who I was going to be. That ended up brin...